At the end of this month I’ll be officially unemployed again. As I’m nearing the end of my time at my start-up, I’ve been wrapping things up and applying for jobs at the same time. Multitasking for the win!
It’s been an odd feeling to see the end of my job this time around. Unlike before, I’m able to tie things up and slowly back away. It reminds me of high school graduation and waiting for the year to the end. Everyone knows it’s coming — the teachers, the students, the office aids — and while you work just as hard as you did before (almost ten years later and I’ll deny any story about not giving it my all), you can’t help but feel that life is moving super fast and not fast enough. I just want to get through the summer and go to college — also known as, finding a job.
So here’s my update: two interviews and one possible contract position. Yay! I’ve been back to work at my network who’ve been amazing and supportive, thank you friends. I’m not sure if anything will come of the interviews, but I’m grateful for both opportunities.
The one thing I’ve decided is that moving forward I’m looking at things not as a be-all-end-all, but as whatever happens, happens. Meaning that one interview will not be my life answer. There are far too many paths in life that would make me happy. One path is not better than another. It’s all in the timing. So right now my focus is on figuring out how to pay my rent and bills. Unemployed life would truly be awesome if I didn’t dig myself into a hole of debt. The best part of this blip in my life is getting to know myself again and being able to think about all the possibilities around me. If I had my wish, I’d move to my new apartment and take a month off to travel in South America. Don’t judge, a girl can dream.
All I can do is be ready and open for anything, this time tomorrow I could be anywhere. And I’m ok with that. Even I’m not ok with it, I have to accept it. I just hope to get paid enough to feed my cats. I’m ok with peanut butter but they aren’t the biggest fans. And they do judge me.
