It’s almost one full week back on the grind and I’m happy to say some of my life lessons are sticking. After my I-don’t-wear-sunscreen-because-I-live-in-San Francisco-and-then-got-horrible-sunburned, I went out and bought SPF 70. Old lady? Yes. But this old lady does not want to turn in to the Marvel superhero Leather Girl. In my case as lovely as my burn was — a truly beautiful rouge — it just seemed to clash with everything in my closet. I may be working but I’m not rich enough to drop a new wardrobe on a sunburn.
One life lesson on the way towards a gold star -yay! – and yet I still feel like I’m loosing at life. I’m surprised how easily I’ve let myself slip into regularity. It’s disappointing. I haven’t done my French or PHP in weeks. I feel like I need to hang a sign across from my bed that reminds me of my goals. I don’t care how many hours a week I will end up working, I won’t let myself get away with excuses. Time is only relative, right?
As for the job, it’s going to be a lot of work and I like that. What I learned from my past work life is that I need to slow down. I was so obsessed with perfection and being ideal that I never let myself be comfortable in the situations I was placed. I always considered being fast a virtue. Well yes it can be if you are fast and efficient, but I made mistakes. Not so positive. This time around I’m really trying to take everything in and actively listen, and when life gets super hard I try to think about Reality Bites. All it took to survive was a gas card and ingenuity. Not bad if you ask me.
