Hello unsuccessful relationship! How are you? Like a good relationship ending, or when your job just wasn’t that in to you, everything good can come to an end — whether you approve or not. Like The Rules state, no matter how much you rationalize the decision it won’t make you feel better and it won’t answer your undying questions. Why didn’t — he call me back, he love me, I get the job.
We know this is hard to accept. We’ve heard it all every rationalization imaginable… Now you’re sure it’s because you didn’t smile or talked too much… The bottom line is, if he hasn’t called, he’s not that interested. —All The Rules
Sure you think, if I only answered e-mails quicker, set my deadlines better, or even came to work with donuts everyday then this would not have happened to me. You would still have your job and your life would be like a Mentos ad. Unfortunately I’ve learned, again, that it doesn’t matter what you do. Decisions are made and usually they are not personal. When I first became unemployed in January I blamed myself at every step, from what I didn’t do right to what I should have done better. Here I am doing the same thing over again. It’s an abusive cycle and one that takes it toll emotionally and physically.
Ending anything remotely personal or professional sucks. This year has been one of the most educating and trying years of my life. I jokingly refer to 2009 as the year of the EPIC FAIL. What’s changed is that I don’t consider failing a negative term in every connotation it’s used anymore. It has made me stronger, more confident and more determined to take advantage of new opportunities. As I look for the answer to life, the universe and everything, I pause. Life can be like a Mentos ad. Be positive, have a good attitude and fresh breath goes a long way. I’ll take the reins and I won’t even panic the next time I fail. If anything, I’ve tried.
