Sorry Milton, didn’t mean to rain on your parade or anything, but it’s been cloudy and overcast in the land of soon-to-be-unemployed again. I’ve been quiet lately — well since Thursday — because for one, I had a mini vacation planned. I went to visit some friends in the Emerald City. It was a nice getaway and just reinforced how important friends are to a healthy existence. It wasn’t about what job I had, or soon to not have, it was about catching up, having good food and watching awesome live baseball.I left Sunday feeling refreshed but also apprehensive about the start of the week.
Unfortunately for me, I woke up yesterday morning and immediately knew it was a no-good-terrible-down-and-dirty morning, also known as Rachel-was-in-a-bad-mood-and-worried-about-the-unknown. I know, I know. I can’t control the unknown. But I really, really want to. Sigh. I know I can’t control a lot of factors — when I get hired, who hires me, how long I’ll end up there, when I become master of the universe — but I can control how I deal with it. Taking time off from job searching is a scary but a necessary evil. It’s not that I’m not devoting all time for looking for work but it’s also about staying grounded and healthy. So yesterday I went to the movies. Yay escapism! Nothing like an air conditioned box, a two-and-half hour movie all to remind me that I’m still jobless but at least refreshingly cool.
Today I’m on the hunt again, and continuing to wrap-up work for my start-up. It looks like I’ll be doing some contract work for them the next few weeks. That will be good for my ego although I’m working on ways to stay positive no matter what. It’s been one of those annyoing but important lessons that I keep repeating until I get it right — how to build confidence from within. Cue the audience applause. As for the rent and bills, I’ll figure something out. Who knows, maybe He-Man will retire soon and I can take over the reins as master of the universe. Hey, it could happen.
